Unmedicated Birth was raw, rough and yet grounded and beautiful.
I have felt love that could lift a car and sadness that could fill a river.
I’ve experienced pain through the same area of my body that had always given me pleasure.
I’ve lost track of time and yet keep checking the clock.
I’ve inhaled joy through the top of her head and gagged through her bottom.
I keep thinking there is nowhere I rather be and nobody I would rather be doing it with and yet some days all I can think about is when I will be able to leave.
I don’t feel like I lost anything but nothing feels the same.
My body weight is almost the same but my body is completely different.
Almost every night I have a nightmare of falling asleep while breastfeeding and not finding her and in the mornings I live the dream of watching her smile or cry….